A Day in the Life of 'the' Ugly Girl

Welcome to My World

You might be wondering why I chose such a title for my blog?
There is a lot of things people don't know about me... I have a lot of 'inward' struggles that I go through day-to-day. I'm sure most people do. But I need a release place; a place I can go to when I feel 'under the weather', a place where no one can judge me, a place where I can feel safe. And so I've created this little place.

Thanks for taking a bit of time out of your day, to take a step into my head... x

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


I can't even remember what I blogged about! Everytime I promise to blog more, things end up getting all crazy! We are sooooo busy at work. But it should calm down a bit now.

The things taking up alot of our time was the Golf Day we did for a charity... wow! It's stressful planning a Golf Day. It was yesterday, and went pretty well. Except for the guy helping us organize...all he was interested in was taking up all the limelight, and he ended up making his name shit during the prize-giving last night cos he is definately not one to talk in front of people.

Tomorrow is my birthday and this is the first year I'm not even looking forward to it. Reason: Hubby & I have still not been paid for February. So we are battling. All our stop orders have gone off, and there's been no money so they've all been rejected. Hubby is so depressed and so am I. We can't go through anymore, and yet it seems that the bombs keep dropping on top of us, one by one.
My BFF said that she is going to buy meat and booze, then we are gonna braai by our place tomorrow - but i really don't want to. How embarrasing is that? Your friend must pay to do something on your birthday?!

I'm going first thing tomorrow to get my papers done for the payout for my trust fund. And im sending it in tomorrow. They said it gets released once im 25...and it couldn't have come at a better time... A little sooner would've been good, but i have to hold on just a little bit longer. So hold thumbs that they pay out asap because we really need this. Then I'm set for quite a while.

I've been on Simply Slim for 19days now...It's going reasonably well. I am losing... but apparently not as fast as most of the people on it. I think that has to do with my water intake. I HAVE to increase it... i just have to! Going to do some research now...

Anyway, here are the stats for my 19 day loss so far:
I'm only noting my loss...

Waist - down 4cm
Hips - down 4cm
Bust - down 3.5cm
Thigh - down 1.5cm
Arm - down 5.5cm
Total = 18cm lost
Weightloss = 3.5kgs

Hope you're all well...

Friday, February 19, 2010

The Climb

Ive lost about 3kgs so far on Simply Slim! Yay! So it works!!! lol. Well i know it does. I have almost no appetite, im always thirsty - so my water intake is increasing, i feel it in my clothes, and the scale tells me so! haha!

Again, its been a really crazy week at work. Late nights, etc.

Last night we had a scare - we woke up to our dogs barking, and someone shouting for us at the gate... it was just after 2am. So we went to the front, and it was a guy who is part of the 'neighbourhood watch' where we stay. He told us that people saw men jump into our yard, and now they cant find them... and that they've blocked off our roads so that whoever it is, cant escape. He asked if he could come into our yard to check if they're hiding or if we would check... we let him in... he even asked if we have a weapon on us...which we didn't. He checked with a torch and saw nothing. Then he came to the front again, and apologized for waking us up... and also told us there are about 30 cars circling the area trying to find them. He also told us about the meeting they have once a week which we are welcome to join.
Obviously I couldn't really sleep after that...

I'm also sick as a dog. Flu that went straight into my chest in like a day!!! Crazy! I've never gotten sick so quick... I feel terrible.

I haven't been eating dinner this week... which i think is awesome!!! I will get to work, have a small breakfast, like muesli or somethin... and then at lunch time, a sandwich with ham on or marmite or whatever...and that's that. So my intake has been pretty good.

I'm very under the weather today... Started from this morning, when i went onto hubby's facebook profile, and i saw that he had left a comment or two on one of our 'girl' friend's status's... it really hurt cos he never even comments on my status's or comments on the nice notes i leave him, etc...
Her status was ''Loving the rain'', and he commented ''Great for snuggling'', then she said something-nothing important-and he replied ''Why?Are you a night or dark lover? LOL'' WTF?!! He's such a flirt... I wish he would flirt with me a little...
Anyway, i got to work, and it was crazy busy... hubby had to drive to jhb for 3 deliveries, and i had to go to 2 suppliers...
There's just tooo much to explain via writing, but needless to say, everything is getting too much for me... I feel like running away. Not telling anyone, and just disappearing....(pulling a stunt like Sherri did)... I doubt i'd do it, but thats how i feel. I just feel so overwhelmed, so emotional - just depressed.
I think that's why I'm hardly eating too...

I'm going to post the words of a song - Miley Cyrus's ~The Climb. You all know it, but the words ring true to how I feel.

I can almost see it

That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes it might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

Cause there’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb


Sunday, February 14, 2010


So, I'm dedicating this blog to my fave cousin in this whole wide world... It doesn't matter how hurt, cross, & upset I am! I still love her with my whole heart!

So here's the story... Sherri was with her boyfriend for about 3yrs... and then left him. The reason: he hit her one too many times. The last straw was when they were at a club on the eastrand - Nicci Beach! She asked one of the bouncers to take a pic of them with her camera...and he flew off the lid because she gave her camera to a black man! I mean, come on!!! He's a bouncer for goodness sake! So he backhanded her down a flight of stairs...she thought he was on his way down to help her up, when he hit her down the next flight of stairs. She thought her nose was broken!! She was bleeding! That wasn't the first time... A year or so ago, they had come this side for the weekend for our other cousins 21st. After the 21st, her and the bf, came with us to a club...on our way out the club, she recognised a far cousin of hers, who is leb(not on my side), and she said hi. Now, porra's and lebs do not get on! He almost got into a fight with the guy for no reason...on our way home(they were in the back of the bakkie), they had a huge fight - he apparently strangled her. when she tried to scream for my help, he tightened his grip...then eventually let go... when we got to my place...she was in tears...and told me everything in the bedroom. She even developed an ED while with him... she weighed something like 48kgs when she got home.

Now everything was great... She had left him - moved back this side...we had a welcome home party for her... she and one of our other friends were showing interest in eachother...he's an awesome guy, and the total opposite of what she knows... she wasn't ready for a relationship yet, but they were working on their friendship, etc... she was mending her friendships with everyone... 
Last thursday evening, before we went to a club... i fetched her from her parents place so that she could come and get ready by me... on our way home... she was on the phone to her ex the whole time...he wanted to pitch up at the club...but we all would've made sure his ass got kicked so hard that he never would've set his feet near my cuz again. Well he didn't pitch up. I was upset with her though, because she lets him walk all over her... even though they weren't even together anymore. I think that is the reason she didn't tell me :(

We all had fun that night... partied hard. I never heard from her after that... All I know is that sunday, her ex was going to go and apologize to her parents face-to-face... Today, when I logged onto facebook, I noticed she had deleted her profile. Then I got very suspicious...
I sms'd her mom to find out what was going on? If she was ok, etc as I haven't heard from her...
She replied that Sherri had gone back to her ex... She told her mother that she was going to Warmbaths for the weekend, which was a lie. She never told any of her friends. She also changed her cellphone number. 

I am so upset! She is supposed to be my best friend! She never even told me anything - She never even said goodbye. :-( 

When I spoke to our mutual friends, they were all told that she was going to one of her aunts for the weekend. Just the night before 'that sunday' - she had told all of us, this is the year for new beginnings, friendships, etc. 

I'm soooo worried about her - how will she be able to contact us if she needs us?? She's moved far away! She deleted her fb account! And her number is non-existant. How will we be able to contact her to say hi, to just check if she's ok??? :-(

It feels like my world has turned upside down...

Here's some pics of my gorgeous cousin: (ignore any dates on the pics... these pics are all recent - within the past 2months)

~~~~On a brighter note - we went away for the weekend. We left on thursday, and got home this morning. It was awesome! I had such a great time with my hubby, my friend and her bf... They are awesome people! 
Took my simply slim for 3 days last week. Thought it would be best if I left it over the weekend because you aren't supposed to drink alcohol on those tabs... So I will officially start it again tomorrow.

I'm going to call it a day - It's been a rough one! 
Have a great week everyone! Oh, and Happy Valentine's Day! 

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Day 1 - SimplySlim

Hi everyone! Hope you all had a great day?~ Mine wasn't too bad.

Started on the Simply Slim today... It went quite well... Took the tab at about 7am this morning. And about 30min afterwards, I could already feel the dryness in my mouth. This stuff forces you to drink atleast 3litres of water a day. I'm not a water fan! Hate it! Only managed to get down 750ml or so today... not even 1 third of what im supposed to drink. From tomorrow, i need to seriously up it.
From about 2pm, I started with a headache... I'm not one to get headaches often, so I assume it's as a result of my body starting to detox. It's just after 7.20pm now, and it feels as though its getting worse. I'm very tired though - so it doesn't look like I'll battle with the whole insomnia thing...

Managed to organize a box of SS for a lady I know who begged me to get for her. So I managed to get someone who still has a few boxes left. He just phoned me. He will be dropping it off at work for me, at 8am tomorrow morning. A little nervous as people aren't supposed to sell it anymore, so if I get caught - which i doubt I will(unless he's actually trying to catch me out), then I'm in big poo! This guy seems pretty legit I found him on the internet speaking up for the product. Which is a good thing. Well lets see how it goes... I'm going to ask him to keep a box aside for me so that I can get it from him at the end of the month... I need more than 1 box to get to my goal weight. haha!

It's hubby & my 2nd year Anniversary today!! We didn't get eachother anything as the funds are a bit low at the moment, but we are going away this weekend as I mentioned in a previous blog. So that is just perfect for me. When I got to work though, my mom had picked some beautiful pink roses out her garden, put them in a vase, and put in on my desk as a surprise for when i walked in...

Ok, now I'm pissed off - hubby just walked into the room. He was on his pc... He looked tired, so I asked him what's wrong, and he said that it was a long day. So I asked him, whats his plans for the rest of the evening? And guess what he said?? Sleep!!!! FFS! I hardly saw him today.... and now he's not even gonna spend some time with me tonight?! Wtf! Now im not happy anymore! What a shit ending to an ok day!

Intake was ok I guess.
Lunch-Pumpkin with 2 fish fingers
Snack-small Blueberry muffin x2
Dinner-2egg whites
3bites of steak
a few chips

hmmm ok, looking at that, it was really shit!

Time for bed! Night

Pic taken in January(I'm the Blondi)

Monday, February 8, 2010


What a crazy busy year so far! WoW... lol.
On thursday night we went to a High-Flyerz... didnt go off to well. It was hubby's first time there, and he's really full of poo as to what the music is like, etc... That place is right up my alley though... loved it!
Friday we had to work late. Saturday we went in early. 5am!!! yes i know we're mad, but if I wanted to get off at 10am, i had to do it. The plan was to go to watch the kick-off of the drifting season at the rock. But as we got there, it started raining... badly! :( So we called it a day and then went home, slept, relaxed, etc... We had nothing planned for that evening, but then one of my best friends invited us to go to her bf's friends place to drink and visit, etc. What a great time we had! Pool, darts, booze.... etc. Really different to the norm... which is clubbing. lol. Then on sunday, we went to braai at the we had quite an eventful weekend.

OMG! Who in SA saw that Simply Slim got banned on friday???! Soooo sad! But atleast my order was in, and I received it today!!! Now I have to do the best I can to lose as much weight from this product in 1 month cos I dont know if I'll be able to get it again... It should get released for sale again soon, as someone tried to 'frame' Simply they're just doing their research, trying to find the culprit, and then they are going to get it registered by the MCC, and then all should be ok. Otherwise I'll have to find someway to get it...

Soooo I officially start taking it tomorrow... I'm soooo excited!!!

Hubby & I are going away with friends this weekend to our plot on the Vaal River... so excited about that too... I seriously need to rest! I'm trying to get half day off from work on thursday, and full day on friday, so that we can leave thursday afternoon...  Yay! Long weekend!!! x

I'm going to log off now...
Till tomorrow...x

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

woMAN Down

I haven't blogged since last week sometime.... and it's not like I have alot of time now. Still at work...
But I'll do what I can.

The ABC diet was a total flop...its not that I didn't manage or that I couldn't...i just didn't have time to track my calories, etc... Life just happened! We are crazy busy at work! I guess its a good thing... but still... I have no time for anything! And when I get home, its time to make dinner for the man, or just relax and pass

We got a new puppy on friday... A Jack Russel. Born on the 15th November '09. Sooo cute, but sooo naughty. It's to be expected though, as it's in their nature. Hubby's wanted one since we've been together, so I'm glad we finally got her... we named her Joey.

This weekend we had another Pool Party! OMG!!! Talk about hectic!~ I'm not even sure how many people were there...but was big. I didn't really enjoy myself as much as i could have though, because some people arrived(invited by others), and really spoiled it for me. Drank booze that they never bought... stole booze, wanted to cause fights, etc...

I went wild that night though... Still felt the consequences up until last night... but im feeling much better!!! Thank goodness! haha!

I placed my first order today for Simply Slim... my friend ordered, and then I got me a box too... so I can't wait until that arrives. Apparently it's the miracle weight-loss tablet. Well we'll see...

Hubby went for an interview this morning at a big company... doing what he loves, Draughting. He will know on monday if he got the position or not. But it sounds very promising...

We are also planning a weekend away... for next weekend. Not sure who to invite though... so scared people feel left out...which is not what I want... It'll be fun though... Next week its my anniversary, and obviously Valentine's it's the perfect time for a breakaway...

I'm gonna wrap this blog up for now... I will try my best to blog a bit everyday, even if its just a small little something..haha!

Much love...

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

100 Truths about me...

Just some facts about me...

1. Last beverage ~ Coffee
2. Last phone call~ hubby
3. Last kiss~ a few minutes ago
4. Last song you listened to~ Money makes the world go round - Lize
5. Last time you cried~ last night(just a few tears, nothing hearty)


6. Dated someone twice ~ Yes
7. Been cheated on? ~ Yes! Bastard!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it ? ~ yes
9. Lost someone special? Yes
10. Been depressed? ~ Who hasn't?
11. Been high? –> Yes

12. Pink
13. Silver
14. Black


15. Have you made new friends this year ~ Yes
16. Fallen out of love ~ No, i love my husband more than anything
17. Laughed until you cried ~ Yes
18. Met someone who changed you ~ I am who I am....
19. Found out who your true friends were ~ Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you ~ Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your top friends list ~ top friends list? the answer would be no, anyway.


23. How many kids do you want to have ~ 3
24. Do you have any pets ~ Yes, a mini yorkie, and a ginger cat
25. Do you want to change your name ~ No...
26. What did you do for your last birthday ~ hmm can't remember
27. What time did you wake up today ~ about 6am. Damn work~!
28. What were you doing at midnight last night ~ Sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for ~ My 25th & this saturday(pool party) :)
30. Last time you saw your father ~ He's in the same room as me - we work together.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life ~ hmm there is a few things
32. What are you listening to right now ~ 94.7 Highveld Stereo, and the people talking in the office
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ~ Tom from myspace sent me a welcone message. lol
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? ~ My grandmother
36. What’s your real name ~ It's a secret
37. Relationship Status ~ Married
38. Zodiac sign ~ Pices
39. Male or female ~ F
40.Primary School ~ Empangeni Preparatory School
41. High School ~ Boksburg High School, and a few Private schools
43. Hair color ~ Blonde
44. Long or short ~ Long
45. Height ~ 1,71m
46. Do you have a crush on someone ~ My husband ;-)
47. What do you like about yourself ~ nothing really
48. Piercings ~ ears, ear cartilage, belly, tongue
49. Tattoos ~ 4 starts and my husbands initial on the back of my neck
50. Righty or lefty ~ lefty


51. First surgery ~ Tonsils at the age of 1. lol
52. First piercing ~ ears
53. First tattoo ~ read above
54. First best friend ~ Eleni
55. First Sport ~ swimming
56. First pet ~ TaChe, a dog :)
57. First vacation ~ To Jhb - can you believe(as a kid)
58. First concert ~ DC Talk
59. First crush ~ A boy by the name of Tim
60. First alcohol drink ~ Some cider - geez, we're talking bout ages ago.


61. Eating ~ nothing
62. Drinking ~ coffee
63. I’m about to ~ pack up to go home
64. Listening to ~ Highveld... missing 5fm! Damn Work~!!!
65. Waiting for ~ my dad to hurry up with this meeting he's having infront of me... i wanna go home!


69. Lips or eyes~ eyes
70. Hugs or kisses ~ both
71. Shorter or taller ~ taller
72. Older or Younger ~ atleast 4 years older
73. Romantic or spontaneous ~ Both
74. Nice stomach or nice arms ~ and that matters why?
75. Tattoos or piercings ~ neither
76. Sensitive or loud ~ sensitive
77. Hook-up or relationship ~ relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant ~ hesitant (This is a weird question) Although trouble maker sounds like it could be quite a lot of fun :)


79. Kissed a stranger ~ Yes
80. Drank hard liquor ~ yes
81. Lost glasses/contacts ~ nope
82. cried in front on someone ~ yes
83. Broken someone’s heart ~ yes
84. Had your own heart broken ~ Nods head sadly
85. Been arrested ~ nope
86. Turned someone down ~ yes
87. Cried when someone died ~ yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl ~ lmao - uhm, yes *blushes*


89. Yourself ~ no
90. Miracles ~ been trusting for one for a very long time, but have yet to see it happen.
91. Love at first sight ~ yes
92. Heaven ~ yes
93. Santa Clause ~ no
94. Kissing on the first date ~ when i still dated, depends...haha! now i'm a married woman. These lips are reserved ;-)
95. Angels ~ Yes


96. Is there one person you want to be with right now ~ nah - work with hubby, so i see him 24/7! Love it.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time ~ Yes
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever ~ Yes!!!! Hell yes!
99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without ~ Tons of things... my heart, lungs, brain without these things I would surely keel over.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths ~ I will change it to 101 truths just to be different.
101. See above.