*Sherri*

So, I'm dedicating this blog to my fave cousin in this whole wide world... It doesn't matter how hurt, cross, & upset I am! I still love her with my whole heart!

So here's the story... Sherri was with her boyfriend for about 3yrs... and then left him. The reason: he hit her one too many times. The last straw was when they were at a club on the eastrand - Nicci Beach! She asked one of the bouncers to take a pic of them with her camera...and he flew off the lid because she gave her camera to a black man! I mean, come on!!! He's a bouncer for goodness sake! So he backhanded her down a flight of stairs...she thought he was on his way down to help her up, when he hit her down the next flight of stairs. She thought her nose was broken!! She was bleeding! That wasn't the first time... A year or so ago, they had come this side for the weekend for our other cousins 21st. After the 21st, her and the bf, came with us to a club...on our way out the club, she recognised a far cousin of hers, who is leb(not on my side), and she said hi. Now, porra's and lebs do not get on! He almost got into a fight with the guy for no reason...on our way home(they were in the back of the bakkie), they had a huge fight - he apparently strangled her. when she tried to scream for my help, he tightened his grip...then eventually let go... when we got to my place...she was in tears...and told me everything in the bedroom. She even developed an ED while with him... she weighed something like 48kgs when she got home.

Now everything was great... She had left him - moved back this side...we had a welcome home party for her... she and one of our other friends were showing interest in eachother...he's an awesome guy, and the total opposite of what she knows... she wasn't ready for a relationship yet, but they were working on their friendship, etc... she was mending her friendships with everyone... 
Last thursday evening, before we went to a club... i fetched her from her parents place so that she could come and get ready by me... on our way home... she was on the phone to her ex the whole time...he wanted to pitch up at the club...but we all would've made sure his ass got kicked so hard that he never would've set his feet near my cuz again. Well he didn't pitch up. I was upset with her though, because she lets him walk all over her... even though they weren't even together anymore. I think that is the reason she didn't tell me :(

We all had fun that night... partied hard. I never heard from her after that... All I know is that sunday, her ex was going to go and apologize to her parents face-to-face... Today, when I logged onto facebook, I noticed she had deleted her profile. Then I got very suspicious...
I sms'd her mom to find out what was going on? If she was ok, etc as I haven't heard from her...
She replied that Sherri had gone back to her ex... She told her mother that she was going to Warmbaths for the weekend, which was a lie. She never told any of her friends. She also changed her cellphone number. 

I am so upset! She is supposed to be my best friend! She never even told me anything - She never even said goodbye. :-( 

When I spoke to our mutual friends, they were all told that she was going to one of her aunts for the weekend. Just the night before 'that sunday' - she had told all of us, this is the year for new beginnings, friendships, etc. 

I'm soooo worried about her - how will she be able to contact us if she needs us?? She's moved far away! She deleted her fb account! And her number is non-existant. How will we be able to contact her to say hi, to just check if she's ok??? :-(

It feels like my world has turned upside down...

Here's some pics of my gorgeous cousin: (ignore any dates on the pics... these pics are all recent - within the past 2months)

~~~~On a brighter note - we went away for the weekend. We left on thursday, and got home this morning. It was awesome! I had such a great time with my hubby, my friend and her bf... They are awesome people! 
Took my simply slim for 3 days last week. Thought it would be best if I left it over the weekend because you aren't supposed to drink alcohol on those tabs... So I will officially start it again tomorrow.

I'm going to call it a day - It's been a rough one! 
Have a great week everyone! Oh, and Happy Valentine's Day! 
xxx

Control!

Had to force myself to blog now...It's late and im kinda tired...

What a weekend!!! The Pool Party was HUGE success! It was sooooo much fun!
Our friendships are really starting to get sooo strong! I love it!
We've planned another one for the 30th. Wow! It was really great!
I ended up being the shoulder to cry on for alot of my friends that night though...found out one of my friends also battles with an ed, and that she SI's too... sooo sad, but yet comforting to know that I'm not the only one in my circle of friends. I havent SI'd for years though...but the Ed, well we wont even go there...

The only part that gets me down about partying is that when I drink, I feel the need to binge on all types of crap the next day! And I can't help myself.
I couldn't even weigh-in this morning, as I left my digital scale at my parent's place cos my mom wanted to get an accurate weight to see if she's on the right track with her diet.
Brought it home today, but left it in my car(blonde)...so now I'm gonna have to get it first thing in the morning, bring it in, then see what's the damage.
Did sooo well today - well it started off that way. Had breakfast(Weetbix), then 1.5 medium banana's for a snack... then didn't eat til dinner time. All i wanted for dinner was a cuppa-soup, but ended up having about 4bites of a lamb chop(no fat), and some chips. So that took my calorie intake to something like 670 odd. Not impressed!

I've set myself a goal - by the 30th(the next Pool Party), I want to have lost atleast 5kgs... I think that's pretty do-able...well even if it isn't, it will just have to be.
One of my friends noticed on saturday that I've lost some weight, and when I see them again next saturday, I want her and others to notice how im dropping this fatazz!
It makes me feel good! I need this. I thrive on compliments...

My cousin is spending the night by me tomorrow so that we can plan our bday party coming up in March/April. She's turning 21, and I'm turning 25.
We decided to throw a huge combined thing. So after work, I'll fetch her, then go home - and we can plan every little detail of our party. It's soooo exciting.
This is really a big year for me. My grandfather passed away in 2004, and he left me an inheritance that will only be released to me on my 25th... I've waited so long!
Don't get me wrong - before he died, I never even knew I was in his will. We thought it was just my father, as he was an only child. But turns out, he split his possessions between the 5 of us(mom, dad, sis, bro & I), and his closest friend at that time.
I was only allowed to apply to my trust for things like my studies(which helped so much), and my car(which I bought straight out the box, and owe nada on it)... so he really helped us alot!

I miss him you know - and my grandmother who passed on a yr or 2 before him... They divorced when my dad was 2... but they were the best grandparents ever!

Work was not too bad today - was crazy busy though because I had to get alot of things done before I could go to my Pastel training at 1... ended up moving to 2...

I do soooo many jobs in my dads/hubbys company...We actually worked it out the other day, if I got paid what I was worth, it would almost amount to a 6 digit number monthly...lol. Crazy...
But we are building this business...Its only been up and running since September, so I must just be patient.

I'm gonna end this post...time for bed. I can't anymore!

Sweet dreams! xxx